Listen Carefully; Be Open
Part of developing a skill is remembering which approaches worked among those that you’ve tried. As we meditate, we’re developing a skill. For skill to develop, you have to remember which ways of focusing on the breath, of conceiving the breath, of playing with the breath in the past have enabled the mind to settle down. It’s good to have that knowledge on tap.
But you don’t want it to get in the way of seeing what’s actually going on. It’s possible to over-determine or over-predetermine what’s going to happen in the meditation. If you notice that things aren’t settling down properly or that they’re not quite right, just put aside what you’ve learned in the past and listen to what the breath is telling you. Listen to what the body is telling you. What does it seem to need? What does it seem to want? What kind of breathing? In other words, make a really careful survey of what’s actually going on. Listen carefully. Be open to new things.
Notice where there’s discomfort in the body or in the mind, and what kind of breathing might help the situation. What might the body want to do? Where is the body not quite settling down? Where does the mind not feel quite secure or snug with its object? Then, pose this question in the mind: “What could be done here?” Don’t be too quick to answer—although, at the same time, see if there’s an immediate response coming from an unexpected quarter.
After all, we’re coming from ignorance. The problem with ignorance is not that we don’t know anything at all. We know a lot of things, but they’re irrelevant or actually harmful to what we’re trying to do. But now we’re trying to get around that. We don’t want to be a prisoner of past kamma, a prisoner of our old preconceived notions.
Sometimes we’re dealing not only with known unknowns, but also unknown unknowns. The only way to learn from them is by looking at what the Buddha said is The Big Issue: Where is the stress? By definition, if we’re doing something wrong, there’s going to be stress somewhere. If there’s any lack of skill in our attitudes, in any of the ways we fabricate our experience, it’s going to result in stress.
This reflection by Ajaan Geoff is from the talk, “Listen to Stress,” January 24, 2011.