Hi,
As in your first post with the Ajahn Sumedho quote, there definitely is doubt present whenever we are unsure what to do. It is not doubt like “maybe this buddhism stuff is whack, and I should become a maseusse instead.” But it is still a doubt. So in my first post I found that when meditating on the sound of silence I felt unsure in noisy and/or busy situations if I was hearing it. I could not distinguish it from the other sounds or it did not seem to be present.
And to note, this is a specific “sound” of silence, in Ajahn Sumedho’s teaching. It is not an abstract concept or idea of empitiness or space but an actual high-pitched ringing or hum, which you can hear when the mind is calm and is easier to hear under favorable circumstances. Usually, people can hear it when they lay down to bed at night. Once you hear it, then you know what Ajahn Sumedho is referring to and you wont have trouble hearing it again.
I have found in the last few years of practice that I have been increasingly searching for the “perfect meditation object” for everyday life. At the same time, my meditations in practice (as opposed to what I have been searching for) have been becoming increasingly formless. Doubt seems to arise for me with the formlessness, due to the years of habit of concentration meditation and also my own grasping. And, I think, because I am on the right track.
I suspect that Ajahn Sumedho offers the sound of silence meditation as a transition to formless meditation. It is an object, but one very similar to formlessness and is a good one for settling the mind and also easing into formlessness.
Your recognition in your meditation that you can go from object to object is the dawning of a recognition of formlessness. That’s my crazy ignorant opinion, at least.
I actually just sit down now, do a little this and that (a few breaths, some awareness of my body, some noting of my thoughts), and then just sit there and wait for meditation to happen by itself. It just does. It’s amazing. It doesnt need an object.
This is basically my sitting practice or “technique,” if it can be called that.
There are two extremes that can result however, one, you can more easily get lost in thought, and two, you can just sort of space out into sinking mind. So you just watch out for those things. Both of these extremes can be directly suppressed with a meditation object such as in classic burmese “vipassana” technique or anapanasati. So, if you are easing into formlessness you might do your formal techniques sometimes and other times just attend to whatever the reality is, without trying to influence it or change it in any way.
best wishes, Supakamo